Ellie's Orange Roses by Jim Latham

Monday, September 12, 2022
Ellie returns to her Alutiiq roots and mourns her beloved Gram; by Jim Latham.

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Ellie's orange roses rest in a cracked blue vase on the table by the kitchen window. The sun shines through the window, making the vase glow, and the sea breeze brings the scent of the roses across the room to where Ellie sits in Gram's rocker, sipping samovar tea and looking out to sea. She wanted to go pick uutuk, sea urchins, today, but she's tired, so tired, so instead she sits and rocks and watches the sunlight on the waves and the orange roses on her table.

She cut the roses from the bushes in front of Gram's small house. Years of sun and salt have faded the boards, and the tall grass has nearly hidden the house. Used to be, Ellie kept the grass cut back, but it's been too hard, too much work these past few years. Gram's rose bushes, though, have spread all along the front of the house, inching closer to the sea with every passing year. What Ellie wouldn't give for one more day with Gram. One hour. One minute...

Ellie watches the sun glow in the blue vase, watches the light tangle in the crack running through the thick glass. Years ago, when she lived in the city, Ellie'd picked up the vase to wipe underneath it and dropped it. During the split second the vase was falling, she'd prayed at the speed of light and found time to curse herself for her carelessness. She'd nearly collapsed with relief when the vase hit the linoleum and rolled instead of breaking, and she cried when she saw the crack rippling through the glass the color of the deep ocean. When she found, minutes later, that the vase still held water, she cried. The roses in it that day had been orange like the ones that grew outside of Gram's house, but made of paper. They'd been placeholders. Reminders. Tiny voices telling Ellie that one day she would return home.

She'd done it. She'd survived. Nine-to-five and credit cards and ex-husbands and all the other terrors of the city. She'd survived it all and come home.

Home. Where the sea smelled exactly like it did when she was a girl, picking uutuk with Gram and Big Momma, wearing waders and making sure not to slip while standing on the rocks and searching under the seaweed.

Home. Where the berries were the juiciest and where Gram's roses grew closer to the sea every passing year.

Ellie tells herself to get up, to put on her waders, but she doesn't. She sips her tea and runs her fingers over the doily Gram crocheted all those years ago and looks at the waves. She thinks she sees something, maybe a seal, no a whale, she sees its dorsal fin and the spout of its breath. She hears its breath burst into the world and it feels like a blessing, the same way a baby's breath is.

Something about the whale is familiar. We used to be whales, Ellie thinks, and she wants to watch the whale longer, but her eyes are so heavy, and she dozes off...

When Ellie wakes, her tea is cold. A thick fog has rolled in and hidden the sun, the shore, her entire world. Her house is full of fog. It's so thick she can barely hear the waves. But she hears a voice. The voice is clear and strong, high and beautiful. It's a voice Ellie would know anywhere.

"Ellie."

It can't be. Ellie stands, then freezes, her eyes wide, staring out the window. But it is. She knows it is. She hears her name again.

"Ellie."

It's Gram's voice. Gram is on the beach. Calling her name.

Ellie crosses the room faster than she's moved in years. She picks a rose from the vase, a gift for Gram, and it's not until she's outside, her door closed behind her, that she realizes the crack in the vase has disappeared.

She doesn't stop. Her bare feet are on the path she's walked thousands of times. She didn't pull on waders or boots or even step into her slides, but she can't feel the stones, and now the black volcanic beach sand is between her toes, but Ellie doesn't feel the sand, either. With the fog, the sand should be cold and wet, but she feels nothing.

"Ellie."

Gram's voice. So close now, coming to her over the water. Through a ripple in the fog, Ellie sees the whale watching her, and she knows. Her feet are in the water now. She turns around, looks behind her, but there is no beach, no house, no village.

Nothing but fog. And it's okay. It's time.

Still carrying Gram's rose, Ellie wades further into the ocean. The water envelopes her, buoys her up. It's all around her, as soft as Gram's skin, as warm as her smiles, as everlasting as her love.

14 comments:

  1. Prolific writer Jim Latham’s “Ellie’s Orange Roses” was an unexpected delight, though I’m growing used to him delivering such pleasures. Such a short story, yet he did so much with it. Ellie developed as a poignant character, fatigued by life and missing the good ol’ days with Gram. Her memories were sweet and I began to envy her a little. I had to read it several times to pick up on what transpired at the end. I’m yet not sure whether she 1) dreamed it all; 2) died in her sleep and went off to her version of an afterlife; or 3) actually became one with the sea in the sense of the supernatural. That’s okay, a little mystery is nice; it’s good to let the reader fill it in a little for herself. Another nice effort, Jim. Thank you.

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    1. Thanks, Bill. Appreciate the kind words. Hope all is well with you.

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  2. We should all know when to walk through the fog into the sea.

    Irrelevant thought - if the ventral side vents, does the dorsal side dors?

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  3. A bittersweet story with evocative descriptions. As commenter Bill Tope indicated, the ending is open to interpretation. Mine is that she passed to the other side in her people’s lore and became a creature of the sea.
    — D. Henson

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    1. D, appreciate you reading and commenting. I have to admit I'm up in the air myself as to what "really" happened in this one. Cheers.

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  4. Very, very nice.

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  5. Thank you, Jim, this was a moving story.

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    1. I'm glad you liked it, Rozanne. It was inspired by a great friend of mine, who I am happy to say is still on this side of the fog.

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  6. Jim’s piece is detailed yet a simple story of life continuing after all of its cracks, even into the calming waters of the next stage of life—death. Nice work.
    Mike

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  8. Very poetic and moving. I real esoteric, almost otherworldly feeling about this piece - peaceful, yet a real sense of sadness.

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  9. The best kind of ending — one that makes you think.

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